first post with some heavy thoughts.

First entry, first thought.

It's my new move to a new blog. Xanga is just getting old. I don't even feel like blogging there anymore. I guess I'm on the brink of finding a new me that I find going back to my "old" -- just doesn't do justice anymore.

Graduation is literally a month away. I'm scared and excited more than ever. Job searching and future planning is hard and I'm stressed. But maybe I'm not the only one feeling this way - I'm sure I'm not the only one.

Some things have been seriously bothering me. I just don't even know where to start. Sometimes I think people do not realize their place and sometimes (myself included) dream for things that are unattainable. I know how that goes. It usually is a mixture of heartache and sadness. And it's the one of the many times in my life that I swear to myself never to do that again. I mean, live and learn right? But I swear, some people need to realize the truth and accept it. Any justification for your actions and or speech is pointless. It's obvious it's not how it's suppose to be and sometimes what you want and what you get are two VERY SEPEARTE things. I hate it when these people do not listen nor think of the possible drastic consequences that are to come if actions are put into effect. I don't understand why people do not think about the well beings of others?

I like what my friend said to me earlier. "Realize and accept" -- it's not at all telling you to give up or to not try -- it's the opposite. It's saying for you to think about things realistically and not to day dream. Thinking about things realistically will only help and day dreaming never works when put into reality. Dream all you want, but what is and will be will always be. So know you're own person and accept who you are and then go from there.

I think sometimes people act foolishly because they do not understand themselves. How sad.