hardest thing

The hardest part is to wait and then realize that the obstacle is alot harder than I had anticipated. I'm almost at the verge of giving up. Maybe like all my friends say, I should let it go. I should pursue it anymore. But a part of me knows that I want this bad enough to suffer all the problems the future has for me. I've been waiting for signs all this time - either to tell me to give up or to continue. I truly believe in signs -- like the little things life tells me. I want to believe that there is such a thing and that people often needs these signs to gain some direction.

Still sucking it up....I don't know how long I can keep this up...