Things are easier these days...

This weekend was another awesome weekend. I was not sure it was going to be like that, but I'm glad it was. Met up with an old friend from elementary. It really reminded me of a lot of things, from the past and how far I've become. It's never easy to look at the past and realize how weak I was or to realize what I had lacked and finally being able to admit it. In a way makes me feel so vulnerable yet strong to have come this far.

Geisha House was awesome ... I seriously HEART and LOVE LA. I'm really really loving my life right now. Although it has been the most agonizing three months of my life, I couldn't be happier.

Another thing I thought about this weekend was how intimidation plays a role when two people meet for the first time. Sometimes it may be hard to approach someone because of the way they act or the way they speak. But what never dawns on me is that I may seem like that to the other person as well. So if we're both scared, the likelihood of speaking to each other will probably never happen. It'll be another great opportunity being passed up. I want to say to you (you know who you are) -- meeting you was by far the hardest thing I had ever done. I didn't realize the amount of effort I had to muck up to approach you. But I'm glad I did and I'm sorry if I didn't make it easy for you to approach me either. I'm really not as unfriendly as I may seem. I'm just shy. I really hope you can understand that I'm fragile and what I want more than anything is to have you with me. Anyways, with that said ... =)

So everything is underway. I'm glad I found the motivation once again and the energy. I don't why, but these are definitely easier these days.